Two days to go before Christmas! There's something about this season which bring out the spirit of giving, compassion and love in each and everyone of us. If we could only keep this spirit alive everyday, then there would be lasting peace here on earth.
For the past couple of weeks, I've been asking God what message He wants me to share with you all this Christmas and this morning, when I woke up, I remembered a dream I had.
In this dream, I was in some kind of a classroom and I remember seeing a blackboard and on it was written in big, bold, white letters the word TRUST.
The first thing that came to my mind when I woke up was this dream and so I thought that this must be the subject matter which God wants me to talk about today as my Christmas message.
I have written (and spoken) a lot about trusting God in this blog and I have included the links below (in case you may want to refer to them later on):
- Stop Worrying And Trust God
- Video – Are You Constantly Worried?
- Video – God Is Bigger Than Your Problems
- What To Do To Boost Your Faith
So what do I write about today about trust which I haven't written or spoken about? Ok, let me tell you about something very personal and I hope you will learn a thing or two about trust, specifically about trusting God, from my story.
This year has been a very challenging year for me, particularly on the financial aspect of life. I have made decisions which affected my financial resources negatively that it came to a point that I have to give up my mom's personal caregiver so that I can keep a roof over our heads. My husband is a very good man but his salary wasn't enough to pay all our financial obligations.
Consequently, with the caregiver gone, I have to be her full time caregiver. At the same time, I have to do all the other household chores like cleaning the house, cooking and at the same time, run a home-based mobile marketing business. Everyday, I sleep at 2am so I can devote some time answering 'urgent' emails from St. Joseph Site's subscribers, design and create mobile websites, develops apps, create and update affiliate blogs. etc.
Now, what has all these got to do with trusting God? Looking back, the wrong decisions I made were mine and mine alone. I never consulted God like I normally would do. I just went ahead and implemented my plans. I trusted myself too much and I behaved like I didn't need Him at all. Lesson learned – submit your plans to God and trust Him as your Partner. I cannot emphasize this enough.
I reflected on all the decisions I have made in my life – major and minor ones – and the ones which turned out right had a common pattern to them. These were the decisions I made after much praying for guidance, and obeying what God wanted me to do even if they were not exactly what I wanted. You see, trusting is obeying. Just look at our Blessed Mother and St. Joseph. They trusted God and they obeyed.
To be honest, there were days when I was so exhausted that I couldn't help but cry. And making matters worse were bills which needed to be paid month after month after month and we just did not have enough to pay them all. I was so stressed, tired and weary and with all these, I forgot my one Source of never ending help, rest and consolation – my beloved God, the God I used to trust and run to whenever I was troubled.
I am alright now. The challenges are still there, but there is one HUGE difference – God`s lost lamb is back – I`m back and He carries me on His shoulder each day. I trust Him with a renewed faith which is far greater than before. God is the source of all my supply. He never fails to provide.
If there is one thing that I can give our Lord Jesus on His birthday, it`s my TRUST and with God`s grace, it is my hope that it will be never ending, never failing, like His love for us.
Give the gift of TRUST to God this Christmas and everyday. Trusting God is the key to peace and happiness in life!